Yes, I'm alive

Whoa it's been a bit since I've logged on here.  I've been MIA since the race in California.  Why, haven't I updated....? In a word, "frustrated".  Basically I've been super frustrated with my season's progression.  I decided to shut down my media distractions thinking it might be a culprit in my over-stressing in races. Since the blog shutdown I've raced one more time which was a 1:47.18.  It was a seasons best and still a top 5 performance for me, so I can't be disappointed with that.  But, like anyone chasing a dream, it's not fast enough.

The Arizona camp is done and I've landed in Victoria, BC.  Lets just be honest, I hate Victoria.  I've seen the sun twice since I've been here and it's rained EVERY DAY!!!  This is the complete opposite to phoenix where it rained twice in 5months.  However, looking at the bright side, this is exactly what to expect in London for weather, so there's that.  Also, I'm rooming with 5 other UVIC girls, which has actually been hilarious.  They're fun, easy going, and are crazy....I forgot how much drama 5 university girls bring with them.  For a guy who loves gossip, let's just say, SEX in the City...you NAILED IT!!!  Sometimes I really miss college. I welcome them anytime to stay with me, in all honesty they really are awesome.

My next race is Sunday on the mainland for the Harry Jerome Track Classic.  This race over the years hasn't been the best to me time-wise but I'm ready for a change.  My body is feeling strong, I know I'm ready to run fast, and I feel a PB (personal best) in me.  My biggest thing is I need to relax.  It's all about fast and controlled.  My California race was the perfect example.  I wanted it TOO bad and fought myself to make it happen.  With 150m to go I rigged up and shuffle stepped it in to a very upsetting performance.

So if I'm going to take anything from this rant it's that I need to stop being a bitch and commit and RACE!!!.....but controlled.  

It'll be broadcasted live all day

Harry Jerome (west coast times)

http://www.flotrack.org/coverage/248652-2012-NTL-Harry-Jerome-International-Track-Classic Click on the watch live button

2:42 Opening Ceremony
2:52 Hammer Throw Women NTL
2:54 400m Women NTL
3:00 400m Men INV
3:04 Long Jump Women NTL
3:04 High Jump Men NTL
3:08 1500m Women NTL
3:16 1500m Men NTL
3:20 Javelin Men NTL
3:24 200m Men NTL PARA
3:30 100m Women INV
3:36 100m Men NTL
3:40 Jerome Outreach Award Presentations
3:48 800m Women NTL
3:56 800m Men NTL
4:04 100m Hurdles Women NTL

Smitty out-